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“This day I have perfected for you your religion and completed My favor upon you and have chosen for you Islam as your religion.” (5:3)


time to change

wrote this on the 24th of November 2008 (2 yrs ago?) and just thought of sharing it with others 🙂

salam everyone..

just want to share with everyone a tazkirah that i heard last weekend. hopefully everyone could benefit from it :)

referring to the title;teori perubahan karut? now, what on earth is that?

well, this theory explains the mindset of a few  of people in this world that want to change and become a better person but they are always waiting for a significant event to change them.

For example, lets take this one guy who is a heavy smoker. He wants to quit smoking because he knows that smoking is not good for him but he is too addicted that he cannot stop himself. One day, his dad, who is also a heavy smoker, was diagnosed with lung cancer and only has 3 months to live. Startled by the news, the guy finally finds the strength to quit smoking…on the spot!  amazing huh?

Well, maybe all of ya non-smokers could not relate yourselves to the above example, rite? so let me give you one example from my own experience. When i was in form 2, my Quran recitals (“mengaji”) was quite bad. Maybe because at that time i was quite lazy when it comes to doing the tilawah. One day, i attended this program during the holy months of Ramadhan and we had to do the tilawah in our groups. One of my group member was a standard 4 and her Quran recital was amaaaazing! She was like a Qariah junior and i was amazed at her voice and how fluent she read the Quran. After we finished our tilawah, another group member of mine, who is one year older than me, said to me: “its a shame how she can read way better than us and yet she is the youngest in the group” –> *Dush* at that time, I felt like a huge rock just fell on my head. I was determined from that second, that i will improve my quran recital and from that day, i (insyaAllah) tried my best to not miss my daily tilawah and alhamdulillah, my recitals are now (insyaAllah) better than it was 7 years ago.

Now, can you relate that example with the theory above? well, actually, i have always realized about my weakness (i.e “mengaji teruk”) but i wasnt bothered much to do anything to improve myself and it was as if i was waiting for an “event” or a “miracle” to happen before i change.  And that is exactly what this theory is trying to say. We want to change and become a better person, but for some reason or another, we are always delaying it, with reasons like “my friends will be shocked” or “its not the right time yet” and the list just goes on and on and on. But then again, we have to ask ourselves, when is the right time?  what if death comes knocking on our door before the “perfect time” arrives?

Im not trying to say that we have to change drastically, 180degrees in one night, but everyday, we have to improve ourselves and try to become a better person slowly. If an event or a miracle does happen to us and it managed to change us then we should be grateful to Allah the Al-Mighty, but if it doesnt, then dont blame fate for the lack of effort to change.

before i end, ask yourselves; are you a part of this theory?are you a penganut “teori peubahan karut”? yes? no? maybe so?

excellence of the mukhlisin

Salam wbt fellow readers,

sorry for the lack of updates from me (smpai blh lupe passwrd sndri -__-“)

for this post, was thinking of sharing what i jotted down during one of the talks in the recent PMS2010, the talk entitled “Excellence of the mukhlisin” by Dr Ayman.

Mukhlisin = those who observe Ikhlas.

Ikhlas means to purify the heart from any action not done for the sake of Allah. It also means the removal of impurity, like the action of sieving flour when you want to bake a cake. In arabic, that sieving action is called ‘takhlis’ and the product will be flour purified from any dirt or stuffs that will spoil the cake.

There are 3 types of impurity that we must avoid to become a mukhlisin:

1. To observe/be aware of our own work.

For example, when we excel in our exams, we feel like we made it through because we are the ones with the clever brain, without attributing the success to Allah.

And they will say, “Praise to Allah , who has guided us to this; and we would never have been guided if Allah had not guided us”

(Al-A’raf: 43)

2. To feel that you are worthy of your work. You expect praises and rewards for your action

“Whoever desires the life of this world and its adornments – We fully repay them for their deeds therein, and they therein will not be deprived.

Those are the ones for whom there is not in the Hereafter but the Fire. And lost is what they did therein, and worthless is what they used to do.”

(Hud: 15-16)

3. To be pleased with your work and your own nafs.  A mukhlisin will always be conscious of his action and will always have fear that Allah will not accept their deeds. This is stated in the Quran, surah al-Mukminun: 60 –

“And they who give what they give while their hearts are fearful because they will be returning to their Lord “

There are 11 fruits from observing ikhlas:

  1. We will get the pleasure of Allah and our actions will be accepted
  2. Allah will put the love of people towards you
  3. Allah saves us from the hardship in this world. For example, the story of 3 people who were stuck in a cave. (This story can be read here)
  4. We will get the reward even if we did a mistake unintentionally in the action
  5. We will still get the reward even if someone/something stops you from an action that you regularly do. For example, you fell ill and cannot perform the dhuha prayers that you would sincerely do everyday, but Allah the Most Gracious will still reward you, subhanAllah!
  6. If you are sincere, you will be very strong
  7. We will be rewarded for a habitual action, e.g. eating, having a shower, sleeping; all of this will be rewarded if it is done sincerely for Allah!
  8. We will be rewarded even if you only intended to do an action, without even doing the action
  9. You will get endless rewards
  10. Ikhlas is the scale of the work. You may do a small work, but because you are sincere, Allah will give you a big reward. Similarly, if you do a big work but you are not sincere, then Allah will give you a small reward (or,nauzubillah, no reward at all!!)
  11. We will get barakah in everything that we do.

That is all that I managed to jot down. I know it’s not easy for all of us to observe ikhlas, but let’s strive for the best! And always remind ourselves to always have good intentions in everything that we do! May Allah reward us in everything that we do, even the most teeny tiny actions that we do, insyaAllah!

On the authority of Omar bin Al-Khattab, who said : I heard the messenger of Allah salla Allah u alihi wa sallam say :

Actions are but by intention and every man shall have but that which he intended. Thus he whose migration was for Allah and His messenger, his migration was for Allah and His messenger, and he whose migration was to achieve some worldly benefit or to take some woman in marriage, his migration was for that for which he migrated.”

related by Bukhari and Muslim

summer bukan waktu ber”cuti”

I dont know what really pushed me to go to Kelantan last week but I think there was 2 things that really helped me in making the decision whether to go or not.

First, my soul was too “dry”, It has already been 3 weeks of summer holiday, yet the only “food” that I gave to my soul was only 1 day of daurah,1 ziarah, 1 week of relief mission and 1 session of usrah. Too little for such a period of time.  I knew I needed more, and the oppurtunity was right there in front of me, all I needed to do was buy a ticket to Kelantan.

The second factor that pushed me to Kelantan was how much I missed my sisters especially the “heartsandhugs” sisters 😛  Only Allah knows how happy I was to see the faces of Ema, Didi & Wan there. It has been a month since I last saw them and there was so many things to catch up.

Besides that, meeting other sisters from all over the world has really enlightened me and their spirit has motivated me to insyaAllah work harder. Somehow, they have taught me that dakwah does not need us, but it is us that needs dakwah & tarbiyyah. If i didnt go to Kelantan or any other programs, the only person who would be at lost would be myself. Allah can replace me with someone else who is willing to work for Him.

4 days in Kelantan has really taught me a lot and I am so grateful to Allah for choosing me to be there. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah!

My dear sisters,

summer might sound like a holiday for some of us, but it is actually one of the best time to gather as much “bekalan” as possible before we go back to our respective universities. Msia is flooded with ustaz/ah, book stores and sisters that iA we could all benefit from. There are many oppurtunities and work waiting for us but  it all depends on us whether we want to grab the oppurtunity or not.

Please remind me if I forget.

Hope to hear from the others soon =)

p/s: wanfarah & kmai, rindu korg jugak..hehe

mark your diaries!

Salam everyone..

since the easter break is just around the corner, i would just like to promote a few events coming soon. Hopefully, something to fill in our free time, meet new friends, and also to have fun!!

1. Spring Camp UK 2009
Venue: kibblestone international scout camp, staffordshire.
Date: 28-30 March 2009
Registration fee : GBP20 only
Tarikh tutup pendftrn: 17 March 2009

activites include pengisian on 10 muwasafat tarbiyyah, indoor and outdoor games, and lots more!
(will be updated soon insyaAllah)

preview from last year’s Spring Camp (brothers):

2. Ladies Day out ~ “A Walk to Remember”

Venue: Conkers, Derby
Date: 25th April 2009 (Saturday)

meet new friends from Nottingham, Sheffield & Loughborough 😛

activities include picnic, outdoor games, and exploring Conker’s natural beauty !

poster conkers

click here visit Conker’s website

Make sure to mark your diaries so that you wont miss out!!

hope to see everyone there 🙂

belated birthday wish


entry kali ni KHAS buat org yg jauh di mata tp dekat di hati 😉

firstly, HAPPY belated sgt3 BIRTHDAY! may Allah bless each and every second of your life and shower you with His neverending nikmat and maghfirah.

secondly, GOOD LUCK with ur exams sis! may Allah grant you success not only in this world but more importantly in the hereafter. And may Allah ease everything for you. ameen..

dear WAN NOR SITAH..all of us here are wishing whatever’s best for you..may Allah guide you in every action that you take. remember, you are never alone 🙂 keep on praying and have faith in whatever you do..

Here’s a lovely prayer i would like to share with you and all the wonderful readers =)

Ya Allah, sessungguhnya aku meminta petunjuk yg baik dr Mu, dengan ilmu-Mu, aku meminta kekuatan dariMu dengan kekuatan Mu. Aku meminta dari Mu dari kelebihan Mu yg banyak.

Sessungguhnya Engkau berkuasa dan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau mengetahui dan aku tidak mengetahui, dan Engkaulah yang mengetahui perkara2 ghaib.

Ya Allah, jika Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini baik untukku pada agamaku, duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang, maka tentukannya untukku dan permudahkannya kepadaku.

Jika Kau mengetahui bhw perkara ini tidak baik utkku pada agamaku,duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang, maka elakkannya dariku dan elakkan diriku daripadanya.

Tentukanlah kebaikan untukku dimana sahaja aku berada. Sessungguhnya Engkau berkuasa di atas segala sesuatu..


remember Him, He will remember you..

Salam everyone..i just want to share this beautiful hadith with everyone:

Narrated Abu Hurairah Ra:
The prophet PBUH said: Allah Azza wajalla says:
“I am just as my slave thinks I am. (ie I am able to do for him what he thinks I can do for him)
and I am with him if he remembers Me.
If he remembers me in himself, I too, remember him in Myself.
If he remembers me in a group of people, I remember him in a group that is better than them.
and if he comes one span nearer to me, I go one cubit nearer to him.
and if he comes one cubit nearer to Me, I go a distance of two outstretched arms nearer to him;
and if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running

-Sahih Al-Bukhari, 9/7405-

i was deeply touched after reading this hadith and a few things that i feel like sharing is:

1. always think good of Allah, ie He will help you, he will guide you, He will never leave you alone with all your problems, He hears your prayers, your tears, your praises and grants you your wishes by giving you whats best for you.

Allah knows whatever you conceal or reveal.

so never give up your hope on Allah 🙂

2.  we can clearly see how gracious and merciful Allah is. by just putting a small effort to get closer to Allah, He will, in return, double that effort to get closer to us. Ironic isnt it considering our status as a humble servant? But that is one of the beauty of our relationship with Allah. SubhanAllah..

3. only in rememberance of Allah does heart find peace..[13:28]  So always TRY to remember the king of all the kings in every step that we take in our daily life. BUT, honestly i think this is VERY hard to do, especially with exams coming up and all the worldly matters that keeps lingering in my mind.

“Believers, do not let either your possessions or your children divert you from the Remembrance of Allah. Those who do that shall be the losers”. (63:9)

good luck to those who have exams coming up and to those who have already had theirs, good luck for ur results and most importantly, doa and tawakal!

and dont forget to include our brothers and sisters in Palestine in our daily doa.. they fight with blood and tears while  we will fight with our pens and papers.insyaAllah

p/s: camne nak bg warna warni sket eh post nie? boring je hitam putih 😛

monopoly and Al-humazah?

salam everyone..finally Allah has blessed me with ideas and a free time for me to write in this wonderful blog 🙂

Yesterday, the Msian Society held a games nite for all the members to chill and enjoy playing board games together. Amongts all the games there, i dunno why i was so attracted to Monopoly. Maybe because it has been a long time since i last played it or because it has always been one of my fav childhood games.MySpace


After an hour or so of playing Monopoly, i realized how dangerous this game could be as it can bring out the worse in a person. Lets see a few examples that i think we could reflect upon:

  1. Feeling greedy: everyone wants to buy the most sites, build as many houses on each site so that they could receive a lot of money each time an opponent lands on their site. The more money a person has to pay you, the more happier you’ll become
  2. Jealousy: i cannot help but feel so jealous with those who bought a lot of sites and kept receiving money. It seems as if the rich ones just keep getting richer and the poor keeps getting poorer *sigh*
  3. Feeling happy every time i receive money or when some one lands on my site (is this the same as no 1? oh well..) and also the urge to curse when something bad happens eg when I have to pay someone or go to jail MySpace
  4. There was this one time, i landed on a site that had 2 houses and i had to pay 600pounds!! Since i was the “poor” one in the game,
    i could only pay 200pounds. But the owner of the site wouldn’t accept debts so she asked me to sell a few of my sites to her, MySpace but i refused (really reaALLY REALLY refused – bleh bygkan x suasana yg begitu tegang diantara pemilik site yg “tegas” & penghutang hehe) i dunno why but it felt so heavy to let go of something that’s yours, plus giving away my sites will mean less income for me!

There are loads of other examples that i think all of you could think of but those are just a few. Now that ive set the situation, let’s relate this with surah Al-Humazah. Alhamdulillah Allah gave me the chance to hear the tafseer of this surah during my usrah.

Surah Al-Humazah:

1. Woe to every slanderer and backbiter.

2. Who has gathered wealth and counted it,

3. He thinks that his wealth will make him last forever!

4. Nay! Verily, he will be thrown into the crushing Fire (Hutamah).

5. And what will make you know what the crushing Fire(Hutamah) is?

6. The fire of Allâh, kindled,

7. Which leaps up over the hearts,

8. Verily, it shall be closed in on them,

9. In pillars stretched forth (i.e. they will be punished in the Fire with pillars, etc.)

This surah is a makiyyah surah and it actually reflects on the behaviour of the Quraisy people back then, but i think all of us could clearly see how relevant this surah is to all of us nowadays. There are 3 categories of people that Allah mentioned here; the slanderers, the backbiters, and those who like to gather wealth. But today i will just focus on the third category.

Wealth and material? Dangerous things these are.. It can make you forget about the hereafter, make you greedy and jealous and etc etc. It can make you forget about the Almighty and about the main purpose of life. MySpaceIf you think that wealth and material can make you last forever, then you are wrong! It would be a shame if wealth controlled us and not us controlling our own wealth.

In this surah, Allah has linked the action (slander,backbite,gather wealth) with the consequence,ie the hell of Hutamah (crushing fire –> now that sounds SCARY!) In verse 6, it mentions that Hutamah is the fire that Allah has kindled, and when Allah relates Himself spesifically with anything, it means that it is going to be something DIFFERENT and when i say different, it may mean more hotter or scarier than the other hells.Wallahualam. Even the fire from a candle can make me cry and scream of pain, what more from the fire of hell, or Hutamah-the crushing fire, that Allah himself will light the fire up???? MySpace“Ya Allah, jauhkanlah kami dr api nerakaMu”

And in verse 7 it mentions that the fire will leap over to the heart. Why did Allah spesifically mention the heart and not other organs like the brain as it’s position is higher than the heart? Well, its because all of the actions mentioned above in the surah all comes from a BAD HEART. If we remember in the 6th Hadith that Rasulullah mentioned that in our body there is a morsel of flesh and if that is good then the whole body will be good MySpace and vice versa, and that morsel of flesh is our HEART!!

So,lets all take good care of our heart and try to stop ourselves from slandering or backbiting people and gathering wealth too.MySpace

dunia-hatiHopefully what happens during Monopoly stays there and doesnt happen in the real world MySpace